9 months in new york
its been 9 months so heres some stuff
people
- ive grown alot. like im just a pretty diffrent person than who showed up here 9 months ago
- met so many new people its kind of crazy
- connections mean everything honestly. pretty much every good thing thats happened here came from a person, someone introducing me to someone or inviting me somewhere or just texting back
work
- built alot of stuff. some shipped some was just for fun some will never see the light of day and thats fine
- learned alot technically too mostly by breaking things and then having to fix them
- almost 2 years as a software engineer now so im almost not a junior anymore which is wierd to think about
the house
- i miss my dog. every day. petting other peoples dogs helps a little but not really
- my house plants are my favorite thing. they dont talk back and they dont need walks and when one grows a new leaf i feel like i did something
- get out of the house. this ones mostly a note to myself. the house is nice and the plants are nice but theres a whole state out there
back home
- i still think about home alot. like more than i thought i would
- i think about past decisions too. the big ones and the tiny ones that didnt feel like anything at the time
- and all the diffrent ways my life couldve gone. if i said no to moving here or picked a diffrent job or stayed where i was. theres probably a version of me doing totally fine somewhere else and i think about him sometimes
whats next
- still not sure where im headed. maybe its here maybe its not here. maybe its this job or another job. maybe its work maybe its world travel
- and im trying to be ok with that. 9 months ago i didnt know id be here either